This summer I fully imagined myself creating so much art. There were quiet moments with tea, and children sleeping in. Completed projects that I was proud to share on Facebook and my blog. Me selling a few pieces.. ahh..
Well, it didn't happen like that. ha-ha. I ended up fully focusing on my garden, my spiritual health and a few home projects that I've been putting off. It's been nothing but work, and little play.
I rarely picked up my camera. I just enjoyed moments instead of trying to capture the scene forever. I turned off my Facebook, so I wasn't distracted by war, politics or other people's vacations. I stepped far, far away from the internet, and I just might continue this trend. I feel more connected to what is truly important when I live this way.
When I did interact with family and friends, it was just me. Not me with a ball of yarn, or a sketch pad. Just my intent to pay close attention to words. I've never been one to fiddle on a mobile device while visiting friends, but a sketch pad or yarn just might be the same thing depending on the situation.
I know it may sound silly, but I do struggle to pay close attention to details. All my detail goes into art forms, and not so much with relationships I have with other people. At times it seems easier to loose myself in the pages of my sketch pad, than to have a real conversation with someone.
Usually when I'm not creating, I feel lost. Out of control. Angry at times. This time it was different. While working, I paid close attention to my own thoughts and how they were shaping my life, and the life of my children. It actually felt good to get to the bottom of some of my old feelings and truly change them.
There is so much work to be done still, but I have the momentum, and I still see and feel the lines waiting to be drawn when I can devote my time. There is no panic to lay them out. In fact, I have new pens waiting for me.
It's strange. Just when you think you've mastered a part of who you are, a new level pops up and you get to start all over again. The good part is that you have a new lesson to help you along with your next journey.
Thanks for reading, and I hope you come back to see more art when I decide to pick up my camera again and sit down at a computer.
Sarah